feeling ugh.

Vet school is hard. I never came into it thinking that this would be easy. But it has been a really rough week. Friday nite was Halloween and I went to a friends house for his bday to celebrate and as usual the pictures came on facebook on saturday. The thing about these particular pictures is that i look like a cow. No i didn't dress up as a cow. I just look like a cow. I have always been a big person and for the most part I am able to accept myself because I have never felt "unhealthy". My blood pressure (when i am not cracked out on Red Bull, coffee, and stress from exams) is usually on the lower side of normal. My cholesterol and other blood work always comes back fine. I usually love the feeling that I can move the couch without having to call for help. It is nothing for me to lift our anatomy dissection subject by myself. It makes me feel independent. But those pictures on facebook really threw it in my face how much I have not been taking care of myself. My arms aren't strong and powerful, they look fat and blobby. My legs don't look powerful they look chubby. It makes me sad that I look this way. And truly the only way to solve my problems is to eat healthy and exercise. Seriously though I have little time for myself or exercising. I am frustrated. ugh.